hey... its been forever... I know...
well, for those who dont know, I did a stint in the psych ward about 2 weeks ago... for cutting, what else... yeah... it was really just cuz I couldnt handle shit... but yeah... I had someone with me the nite I freaked out, but the fuckhead left me alone at home... so then I totally freaked out... like major mental meltdown... yeah, not fun... but anyway... I'm healthy again... I guess I lost loads of weight before I was admitted... but all that weight is back on, and more... but in a good way, not in the 'I'm eating junkfood to gain wieght' sorta way... I'm eating lots of protein, and getting lots of nutrition... got my safetly plan, compliments of Swedes LOL so I have a plan for when things get bad... and its worked numerous times already, so thats good...
I'm reading loads... Brave New World and Tommy's Tale are my current reads... also, Practical Magic...
I got to go out to Denny's for the first time in like 2 weeks last nite... it was fucking awesome! I may have a date for Prom and everything cuz of last nite LOL but yeah, I savoured every drop of that wonderful Denny's brew
Snow and Jess are together, as I thought they would be
that makes me giggly and happy inside! I love that they are together... I knew they would be LOL
I have several prospectives... the ranks change quite rapidly tho LOL Mark, it seems, is at the forefront LOL then there is Travis, whom I havent talked to in a long time... then Robert, who isnt talking to anyone cuz he's a little bitch... then Joey, who I havent met yet... then Tristan, from Con, whom I dont think I will end up talking to... then there is this new guy from Boylan... he emailed me about a week ago... but yeah, he lives in town, so I'll have to talk to him... I'm not too worried about committing to any one of these boys... I'm not worried about committing to any PERSON in general... but I'm having fun 'dating' these guys... I go out on a date here and there... so I consider it dating... even tho its not really... I dunno what it is...
O! I got my navel pierced! WOO! I got it done at Con... Tristan did it... it didnt bleed nearly as much as I was told it would... it has only bled 2 times so far... and that was like when it was just done... but its not getting infected, so its all good... I rather like it... I have pics, I'm just a lazy bastard, so I havent gotten around to putting them online... I have dozens of pics that I need to post... Con pics and others... I'm busy with my camera...
I'm learning loads in Photoshop... I'm glad I have CS at home... otherwise, I'd be so screwed for my VisTech class...
French is boring... its tediously easy... I really must see about tutoring from Monsieur Anderson... I'm the best in my class without even trying... I'm like one of the only ones that can come close to correct pronunciation... its not even that hard... its like natural for me...
I'm on 20mg of Prozac and 25mg of Ceraquil each day... I quit taking the Ceraquil tho cuz it just drains me of any energy... I'm gonna sell it... 5 dollars a pop... anyone interested? LOL just so yall know, theyre downers, so be careful... they are STRONG!!! it knocks me out, and I can take handfuls of aspirin and sleep aids and still only get fucked up, and not tired... and one tiny Ceraquil knocks me on my ass and has me sleeping like a baby within a half hour, if not quicker...
I havent cut since before I went into the hospital... which is VERY good... I'm starting to gain back trust with my parents... I'm making remarkable progress considering the facts... I lied nearly continually to them for over a year, and they are starting to trust me again... things are good... I dont dread being home... staying home isnt a punishment anymore... and that rocks!
I'm extremely bored... I think I shall go up to bed now... I'll read more in my kick ass books and then conk out...
~Lata
